savoring simple daily pleasures
I plan to write a further post over this coming weekend, with the luxury of time and an abundance of fresh sea air. But tonight I felt compelled to just jot down some thoughts on my experiences this week.
I thought I was tuned into my limitations and necessities in regards to social commitments and filling my days and calendar. I am usually mindful of spacing events and engagements out. This week snowballed. I work full time, we are just coming through the depths of winter into the first glimmers of spring- so all a little fatigued, fighting off constant colds and winter viruses, and feeling thoroughly "wintered".
(As you may know, I love and embrace all the seasonals equally for their own beauty qualities and uniqueness, but this doesn't always mean fatigue wont set in when dark mornings become a little more tiresome, evening chores a little more taxing, and a natural longing for warmth, unfurling, and that delicious feeling of unfolding and stretching out - much like a new butterfly , emerging from its cocoon- ready to absorb and embrace the welcome wonders of spring.)
Foolishly, it turns out, (and I absolutely should have known better) I over committed. With an extra activity, social engagement, dance class, meeting, errand, appointment, entertaining or organizational tasks doubling op on every night of the week after a full days work, I hit an absolute wall when the last straw was an atrocious nights sleep- resulting in me decamping to the guest room to try to sleep in the early hours- something I have not done once in all our 20 something years together!
Today I struggled to function efficiently all day. My mind kept drifting, my tasks we shoddy at times, I was snappy and even irrational. I held it together, performed my various duties and just about made it through my to do list before a delicious hot shower, and tucking myself into bed very early to write this, watching the room light up with dramatic flashes of lighteneing and bone shaking, house rattling rolls of thunder. I couldn't be cozier or more content.
I am wrung out, and a little annoyed with myself for not having the foresight to plan better. However, it has served as a valuable reminder, and I am so fortunate to be looking forward to a brief get away this weekend, of utter relaxation and time by the ocean with no plans or time constrains whatsoever.
So, now to my new book chosen at our book club this week, for all of about 2 minutes before my eyes inevitably start to close.
I have a quote written in chalk on the kitchen menu black board which is rather apt for this particular post-
We can do ANYTHING, but we cant do EVERYTHING.
How true. I'd do well to remember that.
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