The struggle to maintain momentum

It’s hard to admit - even to one’s self, when you feel yourself loosing momentum; letting things slip- just a little at first, and having those familiar battles with yourself in your head- berating yourself while trying to simultaneously give your self a pep talk, punishing yourself while craving the rewards. 

I think this is natural. And we all ebb and flo. 

This week I’ve found myself not only outwardly feeling a bit ugh but inwardly too.  But it’s taken me several days to fully recognise and acknowledge what was happening. In all honesty I think it’s a giant melting pot of all sorts of things- none serious, most circumstantial, and ALL rectifiable- yes ALL. 

Mindset -and a healthy one -is a huge untapped resource. While none of us have the power to change someone else’s thinking or possibly unforeseen circumstances- we all have the power to change our thought. Our mind set. Our attitude.  

Nothing “ bad “ had happened- a few moments of frustration- silly things that culminated in a snappy mummy and wify. I’m tired, and acutely aware of my health having only just bounced back from my sinus infection. But I allowed them to snowball- I let them take up space in my head and even labeled them (thank you hormones!)  No more. Tomorrow I will bounce. 

So that’s me. Brief post this week- late due to aforementioned slump. But I’m taking back the reins. I’m going to soak the last few whoopsies away in a hot bath, ponder my boundaries , my needs, and listen to my thoughts and make a plan of how the next few days and weeks will look, get an early night, and wake up to a brand new day. A positive attitude, and an appreciation for all the wondrous blessings I am so grateful to have wrapped around me. 

Spring is desperately trying to push its way through the ceaseless rain and despite my glum outlook, little rays of joy have  pieces my foggy headspace with their simplicity, their promise, and their warmth and magic.  It’s always there, sometimes you just have to look a little harder to remind yourself 💕 and sometimes we all need a little reminder to do so. 

X 

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So a little update, on a much more positive note:

After soaking in the bath and working on intentionally resetting my mindset for the following day, I stepped out side in my cosy robe with a cools glass of water and took a few deep breaths looking at the starts and feeling the presence of the universe. (starry nights have been few and far between of late due to relentless cloud cover and rain!)

I enjoyed a restorative sleep in lovely fresh clean bed linens (My favorite!) and amazingly I woke feeling like a different person- enthused, excited for the day, positive and focused. 

The sun is shining and streaming in to the house,  the spring blooms are bursting forth, I had a great workout and have already ticked several things off my list. The family left in good spirits and on time for their days of school and work and no I'm heading to the spa for a facial. 

Suddenly, with a little positive pep talk and some sunshine, life is a whole lot more enjoyable today and I am so very grateful.