Rest when you least expect it

 Savoring Simple Daily Pleasures

Much of what I write about, and a good deal of my thoughts throughout the day are consciously observing and taking pleasure in what is already around us, what we have so much to be grateful for, and why being in the present moment is so vital for mental wellbeing, happiness and true contentment. I frequently feel moments of true exuberance and giddiness over the simplest of pleasures- regularly 8(probably daily!)while out walking- observing nature- a bloom or a bird, or the aesthetic of a well constructed evening meal, the scent of the first cracking of a freshly lit fire, climbing into just laundered  bed linens, or sinking into a hot bath. These are things I am truly grateful for and make a point to savor and enjoy them.

This week, since returning from our wonderful break in the mountains, I have had to slow down. At first I was frustrated, infuriated even, as I don't enjoy my routine or plans or productivity to be changed or adversely effected. I came down with a fairly nasty sinus infection, meaning I had to stay home from work, but also wasn't well enough to be my usual busy bee about home- usually even when I'm sick. 

And during these few days I have, in actuality,  been so fortunate. It has made me genuinely slow down and prioritize, as I simply haven't been capable of doing it "all". Friends, family and colleagues have reached out to check in and sent thoughtful messages, even a beautiful surprise delivery of some sunshine yellow fragrant freesias. And I'm not desperately ill. I'll get over it. Its a seasonal unfortunate bug but that's all. A dear friend is suffering with a much more unpleasant health concern where as I'm truly grateful that the medication prescribed by my Doctor is already taking effect. 

 I DO take time to notice things each and every day, but in this slowness, I've not only taken the time but lingered for may moments after too- not racing to get to the next thing on my list or achieve something within a (usually self imposed) time frame.  Just now I watched a bee for some time as it navigated the open window I'm sitting at and explored. I just watched. not glanced and acknowledged but really observed and took a moment. 

I woke late this morning- far, far later than usual and clearly from a very deep and much needed sleep as I hadn't even stirred at the sounds of the rest of the household getting up and ready for their day. I stayed in bed watching the tress for a while longer, then padded down stairs when they'd left to make coffee and have a large drink of water, then I found a patch of sunshine on the sofa, and subsequently the cat found me- and the warm sun, and we just sat. Sipping coffee, enjoying the warmth, slowly waking up to the new day, and I felt so calmed and content listening to bird song and her deep affectionate rumble of a purr. (For such a little petite little girl she has a monumental purr!)

Although I'm feeling much better, I'm consciously taking it very easy. I have the house to myself entirely (Well, the cats and I) until early evening, and with it being Friday no sense of urgency looming about tomorrow.  Its so easy to feel that if om not busy busy busy I'm being lazy or not making good use of my time. BUT these past few days have taught me a lot. 

I like to, and enjoy, my daily exercise- and think it good to push myself when I'm on form. I like to start my days early and feel accomplished and almost always better for a run or some kind of movement or workout first thing. But, for the first time in a long time, I have realized that in the bigger scheme of things, allowing my body to focus on fighting this bug and on healing, I don't need to feel guilty about gently starting my day, later and with a stretch and a shower not a demanding workout. I will get back into that routine in good time. But for now, for the next day or so, this is what's best. I am still managing to go for a walk each day- slower and less challenging that usual, but movement and fresh air and thinking time never the less. 

Taking an hour or so after lunch or mid afternoon to read in a cosy spot- ITS OK! In fact, its not just good its NECESSARY at this point. 

Coming in from a walk and taking a long drink of refreshing water and sitting down for a time- all new to me as I usually start straight in to the next task. This doesn't mean I don't enjoy and appreciate every bit of my walks usually, but taking the time to pause, consciously, between each activity or task is really rather new to me and incredibly beneficial and important. 

I've allowed my mind to ponder and dream about a few things and how I'd like a day to look for me in a few years time when I can be home, writing, on my own schedule. 

I've been able to give thought to the coming years, goals, dreams and plans- and picture them more clearly in my head as well and starting to form plans to take me in the direction I wish to travel. 

I have become consciously more grateful and thankful of the wonderous abundance that is life- and health. And a new spark of determination to treasure and nurture this one body- health is everything. Mind and body. And to do the same for my loved ones too so that we may all enjoy what we have been graciously given for many many healthy happy years to come. 

These little bumps are sent to make us re evaluate, pause and take stock. And I'm grateful I was just sick enough to see this, observe it, and prepare to take action with small changes, gentle rest and big ideas. 

Now while there seems to be a pause in the clouds, I'm going to take a walk before a nourishing lunch and a rest with my book. Hopefully with some furry company too.